Holiday arrived.

I know I went MIA for quite some time on WordPress. My academic trimester finally ended, and I should be enjoying my holiday before my internship next month. However, I am currently down with fever.

I also recently fainted in the supermarket (thank God that my partner, Terence, is around to take care of me). It happened two days before our Bandung, Indonesia trip. However, test results showed that it was in the moment kind of faint. So… we proceed with our poster overseas trip. Yay!

I shall write a post about our trip over there soon. Meanwhile, just let me record our sick journal.

I was down with fever and diarrhoea on the 3rd day of our trip. I don’t know what made me sick, but the symptoms sounded like food poisoning. Urgh, it’s my third time experiencing food poisoning overseas (once in Taiwan, another time in Brisbane, Australia). I’m glad I brought medicine along with me. 2days after being plagued with illness, I began to recover. Terence fell sick afterwards, we are just taking turns falling sick in Bandung. However, he was much more spontaneous and continued with our plans that day.

The last day in Bandung, we drag ourselves over to the airport, flew back to Singapore. Terence recovered the next day, we both proceed to carry on our mentoring duties. One day after mentoring, he fell sick again. I decided to visit him at home with some home cooked porridge. And hoho…. BOTH of us had diarrhoea and vomit. And I was the more serious one that even suffered from fever too. I was suppose to take care of him, but he took care of me instead.

Til date, I’m still down with fever, and I feel so empty after puking all my meals out. I really hope to get well soon. So I can enjoy my holiday like a healthy person(:

Jas🙆

Relaxing Wednesday

Think I am going crazy trapped in my house for 3days😔 I woke up in the morning and cooked some Kimchi soup for breakfast for mum and me, then continued to settle some personal stuffs. I am so bored at home, probably after settling all my university stuff (e.g. Getting a loan, getting my timetable done, etc), I will need to get a part time job to work while schooling.
But why not maximize my time spent at home now😁…I Used this time to get house clean and tidy🚜 There’s hell lot of dust in my house (I don’t have a maid and my mum is always busy working), wiped my shelves, window grills and less obvious corners in my house. I turned my pail of clean water into a bucket of dirt filled water and a cleaner living environment.

Now it’s time for some relaxing time😊

This mask smells really good🍵 I am typing this post with my mask on. This mask a freebie when I bought my BB cream from innisfree, I love Korea make up brands because they are always so generous with samples (good advertising move😉).

Just changed my blogskin! Don’t really like the fonts, but I am reluctant to changed back to my previous skin. There’re really a lot of blog themes that’s appealing to me, however I have to pay to get them. Oh well, I am just blogging for fun so I think I will just make do with the free themes, they have their own beauty too(;

Living with Emptiness

Like a message bottle lying on the beach, isolated. Please do not pick me up if you are not the person who is suppose to read the message, I would like to be left alone, waiting for the one to come to me. 

 

I felt absolute emptiness.

Yes, I am clear that this feeling isn’t boredom nor loneliness; I am glad that what I am feeling isn’t loneliness (maybe a lil bored though..). My man is away for the next 5 days. I am feeling so empty, I don’t want anything but him now. I know I am behaving like a little kid now, and it has been a long time since I act like this. I have always been very independent (be it exercising, or getting stuffs) but after I received his love, which took me awhile to get used to his kind of selfless genuine love (please do not stop loving me like this), I was lovestruck.

 

Libra are indecisive by nature, but I am sure I am lucky to be loved by you.

 

 

Happy Father’s Day

I miss you.

Love forever, my love for you never dies.

YOLO?

It’s easier to look others, analyze their situation from the 3rd person point of view and tell them to JUST DO IT *swoosh*. However, I find it hard to apply the same concept to myself. Very often, fear creeped in. Just like the kind of fear you feel when you are about to jump off the precipice.

3 options for you:
1. You Back off, because fear conquered you.

2. You proceed on, because you know that’s only fear. You know the difference between fear and danger. I clearly know that Everything you do has risk, and they are something out of your comfort zone. Fear is only temporary.

3. You remain on the cliff edge and let the fear consume you.

I would very much want myself to go for option no. 2, however my words do not tally with my actions. I am actually at doing the stagnant option and am afraid of falling back and go with the first option.

Academic wise… Now I asked myself do I really want a degree? Is it because I believe it’s gonna aid me in the future, afraid that others gonna judge me because I only have a diploma, or perhaps I just want a better prospect and pay in the future? Or is it that I am too afraid to step into the real world, I am not ready for the game of Life.

For my love life, I am holding on. Just holding on waiting for the right time, like my blog description. I believe the best will happen with the right time with the right person, however, love came knocking on my door on a not-so-right time without warning and I just fall hopelessly into this love. Now I asked myself, do I know when is the right time? Is it here already or have I missed it already? I feel that I am given a lot of chances already, but I am still not taking the chance. I don’t want to be feeling regretful for not grabbing on to the chance.

Do you guys feel that it’s better to missed out something and feel regretful about it or y’all rather regret about something you have done?

You Only Live Once, Live it without regrets.

XOXO

Crestfallen

I forgot about planning for plan B,
I thought the bridge I built will bring me over without fail; but it didn’t.

Maybe I forgot that I am naive… I forgot how real this world is.

I earned myself 213 points which was good enough to get on to a helicopter, it will be better if I was on a plane or even a jet plane, but it’s really good enough. It was a wonderful four years journey, however the end results wasn’t that good. I didn’t earn enough points to travel by air. I was only allow to travel by car, bike or walk. It’s okay, although it will take a longer time, but I know I will reach there. I drove, with a lot of ups and downs, rocky roads and I reached my next pitstop.

There was a gap ahead, I guessed I need to build a bridge to get over. With ropes and planks, I started building, when I nailed my last plank onto the bridge…I was happy, I finally finished building the bridge! I never realize until now… Oh gosh… There’s still a gap ahead. Getting over was never easy, I guessed I overestimated myself? The gap was Too wide for me to get across to the other side. Now that I have ran out of planks, what should I do?

I stood still, staring at the gap in front of me, it’s impossible to leap across, it’ll probably end of my life. I was thinking as if the only way out is to move forward, but I know that’s not how life is suppose be.

Now, I start to ponder what’s next. Give me time, let me sort everything out. Should I rebuild the bridge? There are alternative routes to get over there right? Or maybe should I change my destination? As I begin to contemplate the next step, I realized it’s gonna be night time, darkness is approaching. The car I have been riding on, will be gone soon. I am panic-stricken, I am terrified.

Why BEAUTIFUL WOMEN who want COMMITment will NEVER be ASKED on a REAL DATE, but a stripper will

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The Most Beautiful Successful & Loyal Women have never been taken out on a real date.

“Many females are gold diggers, too stuck up, so how can I approach? If you don’t have a big bank account to spoil on them, they won’t let you ask them out,” a tall, muscular, Australian futures trader asked me at a public speak I did for a group of business men, through a third-party cooperation.

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Encouragement

I may be weak now. But I definitely can get over the hurt I experienced. I really appreciate all the words of encouragement. I have friends trying to pull me out. Thank you for putting faith in me people (: I will be strong in due time. 

Honesty

I kept you away from me because I am afraid of losing you. Yet, I lack the courage to tell you exactly what you need to know. I am really sorry for hurting people around me. I guess I need to have a brand new start to everything. Everything’s so screwed up. 

Will you still love me as much as I love you?