Home is a place you should be free of restriction, and enjoy. However, my home is a pigsty, where lazy ass like me, just sit at one corner of my house, and eat non-stop.
Month: January 2012
Fact #1
Pathetic one sided love sucks. But It will be just enough for me to know that you are happy now.
I am bored on CNY
My Favourite kind of lunch – Strangely seems to be the tastiest meal when I am feeling lonely. But seriously this is nice but still unhealthy😭
I am so bored I went around my house taking photos randomly, this is my kitchen.
That’s my fridge, so many things but nothing to eat. 
And this is me, I still haven’t figured out when should I start to wear my new set of clothes. It’s a Chinese tradition to wear new clothes on the 1st day of the lunar new year.
This is a view from my living room, you will see a flat that is identical to flat, like a mirror view of my flat. 
I’m really bored during the Chinese new year, but I really have no mood to study for my test that’s approaching real soon in around 2 days time.
I am really very bored. And I’m still figuring out my own feelings to you. I am tired of making the wrong decisions again and again….
4 days In a row
I have lunar new year snacks at home for my 4 days break, I planned to hide at home during my new year, and hope that I can complete all my remaining projects in the first three days, then revise on next Tuesday before my test on Wednesday.
My mother dancing in my new year outfit, it’s black…not really suitable for chinese new year, i know. But that’s actually what i brought online during the christmas season, and it just reach me a few days before christmas, so…my new year new clothes shopping is done like that. My mother doesn’t wear skirt/dress, so I took my chance to take a couple of blur shots while she dance. She’s Forever cute!
I love her, do we look alike?
And I randomly took photos with my mother while she’s doing her laundry.
If only I’m her boyfriend, this photo will be god damn romantic. I love you, mum.
Woke up at 9am this morning, I think there’s some magnet which holds on my bed, I’ve to struggle to get out of my bed, out of my bed around 40 minutes later and uploaded the projects up online. Facebooked and Youtubed, time pass fast when you are using the computer. Prepare for school, and some long time to pick what shoe should I wear for today’s lesson, because I think there’s too much colour on me; Blue lace top, mustard shorts, turquoise sling bag. I don’t want anymore striking colors on me because I don’t want to look like a clown. I received the same message from Victoria, Sock Han and Shee Leng – HCS class canceled today. It means that I only have 2 hours of lesson, and 2 hours break in between. I went out of my house, to he bus stop, and realize my bag is real heavy, I figured that I should left my HCS class materials back at home, I went back to my house block, and drop them off in my mailbox and went back to the bus stop; I was late for my first lecture because of this.
Today in contract management lecture, we learned about what’s alternative proposal – companies offer something else other than their base proposal to themselves revenue. I find it amazing that I know how to do integrals when I haven’t done my revision(but not the tough ones). I’m happy! Went to the toilet and take a look at my hair in the mirror, I am also happy that my hair is growing.
However the natural curl at the tip also irritates me. I guess I can only wait for it to grow longer.
16January2012
So hard to wake up today, I am tired. 8 hours of sleep after 32 hours. Blame it on being greedy… I want to play and have fun. Well, if I play hard, I have to work hard as well.
I woke up one hour earlier to go to the library, to look for the reference needed for my group project. The bus is still as crowded as usual. Reached school at 8am; the library just opened. Met Sock Han, found the resource. Then found what I want, and left.
4 torturous hours passed, I am yawning non-stop. It’s definitely true you cannot focus well if you do not have enough sleep. Tried hard to study for PST, but …last minute study still have limited potential. PST ended early, class dismissed after quiz and browsing of past years’ projects.
I went to the library to meet up with Si Xian, Mendi and Hwee Yen. Si Xian and Mendi are watching Running man. That level was full of muggers; you could sense it from the quiet library atmosphere that is unusual in TP library(except for level 5). HweeYen introduced Marriage with liar, the whole movie is Sexy and packed with lies. But I finally understand why did Hweeyen said: “If you love a person, hurt them first. Because Guilt is the best way to maintain a relationship.” And yes. Love must exist, if not hurting them becomes guilty and meaningless. 
Went out to Tampines, to buy Koi with Hweeyen. We were so bored, 3 more hours to the Admin interview. Koi surprisingly didn’t open today! I was kind of shocked when I saw the shutters down and when we walked closer, there’s a note pasted there; It closed because there’s an annual staff dinner.We went to buy Gong Cha instead, bought the usual fresh milk herbal tea. We went back to school, enjoyed it with my movie. Si xian came back from her Japanese class group meeting, and Kimberly came to join us too, Mark then joined us. WHOOTS! All the people here, are going for the admin interview later. Awesome.
I don’t know about later, but for now, not getting in the April orientation is cool for me. Somehow it makes me thank about the extra holidays. we have to free ourselves from 2nd to 5th April, and 17th to 20th April for the camp. I just answered whatever that can pull me into the committee; like what my instincts tell me to do. I heard that Mark did well in his interview. I hope that, if one in:all in. On our way out of school, I hear the trumpets playing. The sound of band, it makes me miss my instrument a lot a lot. One band one sound.
4A1 class BBQ
The number of people who attended the BBQ at 5pm. BEST BBQ PARTY EVER.
Just Back from Terry’s house! Whoots! Had a great time over there with great friends there! This time I didn’t get a hangover, thanks to sore throat I told myself not to drink achohol(anti-drugs). I didn’t bring a bag when I left for the BBQ, and I got a new bag when I came home.
Tanya asked me to go early, even though I am going to meet Vivien at 5something at the MRT station. This poor girl is alone with 3guys there, I rushed to Terry’s condo. Damn, 2 of them, Yexing and Terry went off to play basketball. Guess who’s there? Chye ann. So awkward with him because of our past relationship. We are obviously avoiding one another, and Tanya still jokes about it, because before I came, they talk about her ex boyfriend too. Revenge on him but Sian for me, but whatever, Tanya is here to liven up the atmosphere! Vivien came and went off soon after eating little. At this time, shuyun, Jiahui, John, Shaun, Derrick and Alex came. Yes! More people to join us! It’s around 7pm, the sky is getting darker and the lights are still not on. Haha! The wire tripped, a few times, therefore there’s a disco going on at the pit.
Most of them went off to play pool after that, leaving Tanya, shuyun and me over at the BBQ pit. Yasser came, followed by WoanTing and Constance. Yay! Constance bought and brought my new baggu lookalike! Hoyin,Jianhao and Ngee Leng arrived after that, with 金针菇,sausauge and marshmallows. BBQ more marshmallows…and the 金针菇. That’s the first time I heard of BBQ 金针菇, due to our creative Tanya! I will just describe the taste as… 金针菇 that is BBQ-ed.
Went to walk around the condominium, I love that condo for being a mini village in yishun. Sit at the poolside, and Jamie arrived! She was dressed up like a Aladdin. After a while, our BBQ stuffs and belongings were carried to us from the pit, because it’s late at night, and we need to lower our volume. But how can a class gathering be quiet?! Some of the residents were annoyed by our noise level. We quietly move towards the basketball court, but it’s just a matter of time before we will be chase out of the condo. Took our group photo at there, and the security guard arrived soon after that. Effective security management they have, this is what people who stay in HDB flats don’t have, the only one we can call is the police, but I think it’s kind of a small matter, that I find it weird for anyone to summon the police. So we went out of the condo, and at the field opposite the condo.
Shuyun, Constance, Jiahui, Jamie, Shaun and Derrick left us after that. The remaining just stayed and prepare for their liquor party! But the problem is… I cannot enter into other’s house due to superstitious reasons. So I stayed outside with the girls and few guys, chit chatting at the poolside. Vivien returned afterwards, she joined the liquor gang, this girl who just turned 18, becomes a alcoholic, when there’s liquor around. Hahas! I’m also Glad that there are friends who keep me company when I’m in such situation. But soon,my friend suggested that we move to his balcony, and I moved into his balcony, I climb over into his balcony instead of entering though the front door. So.. I consider that not entering the house, sounds like a lame reason, but I want to feel the atmosphere in there too.
After chit chatting, I told my dad, “if you let me into his house, please rain to agree”. Then later I also ask, “daddy, if you allow me to go into his house, please let the wind come too.”
You know what, it rained. Of course the chilly breeze comes together with the rain. I reluctantly went in, because I still have some doubt whether can my dad 呼风唤雨. But I definitely find it more comfy inside the house. Vivien’s face is so red after we found her. But still conscious she has self conscious, blame chye ann for making her drink so much because they were playing ‘guessing number’. Vivien went somewhere else after that. Left the usual three who stay over always; Tanya, Woan Ting and me. Ahh… Before she left, we sang the January babies a birthday song, including Vivien! One of the “one person serving” birthday cake(the tiramisu cake) melt, that cake was meant for Hoyin. That Tiramisu is a epic fail, I laugh out loud on that. Send her off after that.
Back to house. The boys make a mess at the basement, every time is the girls who clean, like we are the maid, one day it will be the girls who do that(sounds impossible). They are playing tai ti after that. John slept, Jianhao drunk as usual, terry sleeps on the floor like he’s a guest. Most slept. Chye ann and Yasser went to the basement and sleep. We girls move around to talk. I’m somehow amazed how powerful is Kpop, almost all especially the guys, were attracted to “the boys” by girls generation and “Troublemaker” by trouble maker, the ultra seducing MV. I love these two too, MTV is awesome. How I wished to have starhub subscribed channels in my house…
Going 6, Tanya and WoanTing go around and wake the others up, including me, however I wasn’t asleep, but just closed my eyes to rest, but fun getting pestered by them, no reason in particular.
Alex, John, ngeeLeng and Yexing went off first via the condo’s shuttle bus. The other sleepyheads like Jianhao, Hoyin, chye ann, Yasser and me with the two super energetic Woan ting and Tanya, went off via public bus after that. Hoyin got off the bus first, followed by Jianhao, then me, then the remaining got off at the interchange.
The sad thing about this is… Total amount collected for the BBQ is $30++ lower than the total fee, and I cough the BBQ cost out. Just treat it as a treat for my classmates then. Since every of my class gathering requires someone to pay the amount first, then there’s sure loss for the person for the person who paid the full amount. Now I know how they feel. But… I got myself a pouch from Tanya(photo below), weird design. Now, Woanting, Vivien and me have got the same pouch.
Now I’m back home, and I don’t know why I don’t feel sleepy even though I didn’t sleep(definitely not because of my rest)…but I think maybe because I am happy. But there’s one thing waiting for me at home, my school projects! I totally hate it, but all students have no choice. Now it will mark the start of my project. One step nearer to project completion.
Zzz ❤
Whoa… Slept at 2am this morning. And woke up at 1, and just got out of my bed now. I’m still feeling lethargic. I wanna sleep until 4pm! Then I can straight away head out to the class BBQ later at Terry’s house. I remember I woke up and heard my mom says :”现在九点了！快起来陪我吃早餐(it’s 9am already! Get up and have our breakfast together)” and then I went to the toilet and continue to sleep. Now I hear the sound of my house door opening. Mummy’s back!
11.01.2012
Woke up due to cough again. My cough is so irritating. However, I am happy. Today is the 7th week my papa had been gone; today my family is suppose to go and pray. I have school and even a test, although it’s just a short 3 hours in the school, I don’t want to miss them. The reason why I am happy is seeing my mother still in home clothes, playing the iPad on bed. Usually when I have to wake up for school, I will hear the sound of her leaving the house – the sound of my house door closing, and the slamming of the gates. That’s the signal for me being alone in my house, but whatever, I need to rush to school every morning. Jasmine is often late for the a.m. lessons.
Wore my new spectacles, that awesome feeling. I got similar spectacles as my classmate Geok Hoon, and I met her on bus. The first sentence I heard when I step into the lecture hall was “Hey, 你们两lookalike!” by one of my classmates. Didn’t mean to copy her style, but I wanted a Ray-ban spectacles so badly especially when I was in Secondary 4(2011). Now I got it! YAY!
Maths lecture just left with a lot of lot question marks in my mind. In FACOM lesson, we learned about vertical transportation – Lifts. Proceed to maths quiz after the lectures, the last question was.. tough to me, my paper was in a mess after all the cancellation, I spent some extra time to liquid them off. Hwee Yen went around asking our classmates to come for the interview to become an Admin in the April Freshman Orientation. Followed them down to the concourse area to accompany our classmates who signed up. It’s a good new that most them who interviewed for admin is our classmates, and I manage to persuade Mark to join the interview as well! One more friendly soul. Went off with Mark after he signed up for that. Home and to the clinic with my mother, I love to stick to my mother, I am Mummy’s girl, and I am proud to be one!
Online to do, some stuffs and munch on the pineapple tarts my mother bought yesterday. Extra calories for today, need to be burned off ASAP.
My CCA-mate Marcus sms-ed me that Karate grading is around the corner. Gosh. I am so lazy and reluctant to go back to karate. I don’t want to join competitions and karate just doesn’t fit into my schedule. My school ends at 12 noon on Wednesday and karate starts at 6pm, what am I gonna do during the 6 hours break? Last time I used to nap in the school library. It’s way to boring. One whole weekend is used for karate training. Happy time with the people there, but after a long time, I think I don’t have enough time for myself. I really like karate training, I love the sweat, it’s like the PE(physical education) I used to have in Primary and Secondary school. In secondary school, CCA is made complusary, and I will go for my band every Wednesday and Saturday. I love the friends there too, my close friends. Karate too, have that similar bond. I remember in band, band members in our batch often grumble about the rehearsal, but we will still go for the practice still. But for karate, perhaps it is because there is no more classmates in there. I used to have 6 bandmates in my class during that days – Derrick, Shihui, Douglas, Kim Yong, John, ShuYun; highest number of band members compared to other classes. But there’s one difference between these two: In band there is consistency. I will return to there once the breaks are over. I miss my instrument. Whereas in Karate, I find it ridiculous that there’s almost no break even in holidays and term test. However the training is still fun. But… no point training when I don’t want to go for competition, I want to exercise daily, well, I don’t mind jogging, jogging to substitute the martial arts, at least it reduces the guiltiness in me. After joining, I know one more thing about myself; I do not like individual sports. I have my classmates who supported me, to give up this, to end this. I understand about what I will lose after I leave karate – the friends and the additional joy they bring to me. Just like a relationship, if you think you are not suit for each other, end it fast before things worsen and turn ugly.
Have to transfer money to Tanya’s account now, for the class BBQ that’s coming up real soon. Why do I not know how to use the internet to transfer the money over, if I knew how, I do not have to go down to the nearest POSB ATM to transfer to her, I am lazy to move my ass out of my house. I cannot believe myself, I spent really quite a lot this week – BBQ, Spectacles, a bag = $300+- that’s like 6 weeks of pocket money! OMG. I am guilty of spending so much, can anyone handcuff me?
Random moments: The white strawberries looks kind of not-so-appetizing compared to the red one on the right. But they tasted the same! Korea Strawberries are just as awesome as Koreans! Daebak!
New Spectacles!
In school, I learned the basic of REVIT(an Autodesk software). It’s more detailed than the Autocads, however I am used to using Autocads, therefore learning something new… it takes time. Have a hard time doing the bookshelf, hopefully in the future I won’t struggle with this anymore. Up next, maths tutorial, was in a dazed throughout the lesson, wasn’t intentionally, but somehow a weird giddiness. I just stared at my paper and the whiteboard, the paper again and the cycle goes on. But I did learn something, integration is the reverse of differentiation.
Rush home after that, rush down with my mother to get some stuffs for my daddy because the stall is closing before dinner time. Phew, that whole lot of stuffs for my dad was quite expensive and heavy. I am quite shocked that all that prayer stuffs cost $120+ and it was heavy, no wonder my mother insisted that I should go with her. Put those stuffs in the temple first. We went to collect my spectacles that is ordered 4 days ago(last Friday). I am so happy that I got my Ray-Ban Spectacles! The price is the same as other spectacles I made in another neighborhood shop, however, I suspect the other optical shop cheated my money! I had never chose branded spectacles, I used to choose brandless half frame/those made of metal spectacles. That shop charge me more than my current new spectacles! Now I will always go back to this shop to make any new spectacles. I find their service professional although its not in a shopping centre. And most importantly, they have a wide range of spectacles to choose from. This shop is called Visual Arts Optics.
Bought some festive snacks to munch on. I should help my mother to save up in the next few weeks, we spent a lot today, my mother hard-earned money. Money is not easy to get. Well, since my family cannot celebrate Chinese New Year this year, the red packets(Ang Bao) money will be spent on my father then. When I think of Chinese New Year, I feel quite sad in fact, because my dad will be celebrating on his own this year, without us by his side. Oh well, I really miss him.
BUILD YOUR OWN FORTRESS 
